The funny part about all this was that I wasn't a very good wrestler. Not many at my level would put as much into their diet as I did. I really wanted to get some wins as a wrestler, but that wasn't where the bulk of my motivation to do all this came from. The motivation mostly just came out of my own interest. These tricks I could pull could change my body to how I wanted it to be, it was new, and really cool for me. From there, I just kept learning, reading articles online, talking to my nutritionist mom, and watching video after video on YouTube.
One night I found myself watching videos on nutrition, instead of doing homework due the next day. I realized something very simple, yet still difficult to realize: I liked learning about nutrition, I did not like learning about chi squared tests. I don't know why I like one, and not the other, but for some reason I do. There will always be things I don't want to do that I must do, but as my crossroads approaches, I've got a chance to decide on what I do and don't like. In this first experience with nutrition, its not just nutrition I've learned about, but also understanding passions.

A great examination of your interest and work ethic here--how does that play out now? In particular, now that you are earning credit for the nutrition work, has your interest / focus wavered? I think you can begin to make sense of the WHY--spend some time unpacking your connections to health, your connections to people (your nutritionist mom, etc.) and what you want --"These tricks I could pull could change my body to how I wanted it to be."
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